Stress level has risen five levels!

Lifes been kinda busy.

My cat is dead.
And we're either adopting a stray, getting a house cat, getting a dog, or not getting a pet for a long time.

I love animals, so I want one. Little One...she was my baby. I loved her. I would hold her in my arms and cradle her like a baby....And she only let ME do that.

And now she's gone. Forever out of my life..

I feel color blind..I feel... I feel blind.

Oww, depressing.
Iunderstand why my mom isn't comfortable with a new pet. We were so attached to her...
This...this feels like last year, when grandma and grandpa died... Moving on..

I got my Soq, he's pretty.. I'm co-owning with a friend because when I mentioned it in MSN, he was like "Lucky! D:" and then I remember how I promised myself I'd co-own my next Soq with him..So yeah. n.n;

My mom went BALLISTIC on me when she saw I made a B on my report card. AN EFFING B.

"Mom, it's not a big deal."
"Yes it is! What am I suppose to say? Too bad? What did Adam make?"
"...Yes, that's all you have to say. And wehn did tis become a competition? Middle school grades don't even MATTER that much. A B won't keep me out of college!"
"Don't give me your attitude! Go to your room!"
"Fine, I think I will!"

So I went there. And started bawling and crying. Like a baby.
Oww, I handled that well. @___@; She was being...urgh.

I want a pet bad. A chinchilla, a fish... Just something to preoccupy my time off of...this. I don't want to deal with this!

My anxiety/stress level is building up. I hope I don't get shingles. I'm worrying about everything....I just want life to SLOW down for me. =3=

I have more to rant about....but later.

Rambling.

I've been busy with honor band. o 3o; My stand partner, Ashley, is really nice... She's also from the gifted school.. xD That I could prolly go to if I wanted to try and see if I was in the gifted program.

HB [Honor Band] is sooo nice...But hard. DX I feel bad since I'm Chair 12, and Hannah, the 13th chair is SO much better than me... I guess I did better with sight reading and prepared pieces? Or was it just because the judge liked me? DX Urrrrgh!

Adam has a guitar.. I went to his house today and strummed some random notes on it... AND NOW I WANT ONE! My fingers hurt a little though. You know what? I'm starting to have *fun* with Adam like it use to be in the older days when there was no such thing as dating.. I loved those days...They were also the days when I liked him. I'm scared I'm gonna fall in love with him again. =3= *sigh*

I also saw Phillip at fencing! Longer hair... DDDX NOOOO! I really like Phillip, I just hate his hair...Long. He got this aweosme jacket for Christmas though! XDDD He can zip it up ALL the way, like..Literally. The whole hood. He looked like a mummy! xD I barely talked to him on Tuesday, though I did some drills with him...Glove kicks, conditional posts... The usual stuff. I really wish school was over so he'd go to the club more. I miss talking and fooling around with him and Rex..We use to play ping pong instead of fencing. XDD Buuuut stupid Rex got a girlfriend! D<>

OH, I've been so addicted to getting more b/c pets lately. I REALLY want another noodle or Mush!... And I want my Soq I one on New Years! D<

I'll have to tell ya'll the irony about the Soq later. ;D