Stress level has risen five levels!

Lifes been kinda busy.

My cat is dead.
And we're either adopting a stray, getting a house cat, getting a dog, or not getting a pet for a long time.

I love animals, so I want one. Little One...she was my baby. I loved her. I would hold her in my arms and cradle her like a baby....And she only let ME do that.

And now she's gone. Forever out of my life..

I feel color blind..I feel... I feel blind.

Oww, depressing.
Iunderstand why my mom isn't comfortable with a new pet. We were so attached to her...
This...this feels like last year, when grandma and grandpa died... Moving on..

I got my Soq, he's pretty.. I'm co-owning with a friend because when I mentioned it in MSN, he was like "Lucky! D:" and then I remember how I promised myself I'd co-own my next Soq with him..So yeah. n.n;

My mom went BALLISTIC on me when she saw I made a B on my report card. AN EFFING B.

"Mom, it's not a big deal."
"Yes it is! What am I suppose to say? Too bad? What did Adam make?"
"...Yes, that's all you have to say. And wehn did tis become a competition? Middle school grades don't even MATTER that much. A B won't keep me out of college!"
"Don't give me your attitude! Go to your room!"
"Fine, I think I will!"

So I went there. And started bawling and crying. Like a baby.
Oww, I handled that well. @___@; She was being...urgh.

I want a pet bad. A chinchilla, a fish... Just something to preoccupy my time off of...this. I don't want to deal with this!

My anxiety/stress level is building up. I hope I don't get shingles. I'm worrying about everything....I just want life to SLOW down for me. =3=

I have more to rant about....but later.